Tuesday, March 31, 2009

so u wanna collect friends eh?

It's like damn ridiculous my fb has like over 700 friends??

I don't exactly even know where all these people come from, considering the fact i'm not really a social butterfly at heart. And everytime when some random person tries to BE MY FRIEND, I'll always end up texting the person "hey have we met before???" before i even consider anybody worthy of being a friend. I'm not a prude but honestly I think life needs to be streamlined and tidied up at times, including an overwhelming collection of friends. Sad to say, the people who are really close to me aren't that active on fb and most of the people who are the misc types would be the ones poking me here and there.

Posted by Atlantic Amethyst at 5:22 PM

Friday, March 27, 2009

A Moment to Breathe

This post is like ... wow?
Especially ever since when I've stopped keeping track of my life since my last relationship. Never did I expect that i'll actually log in to blogger this very night and type something, probably out of nothing and yet something.

In retrospect, from the time I stopped blogging till today, life has been extremely challenging. And in certain ways rewarding, out of these challenges, as I move on to mend the broken patches in my life.

To people who have understood me, they would never have known me to be emo. Emo is the word to understand me for those who have never really understood me. And in general, most people think I'm emo. For friends like Yuhong who aren't really close to me and yet manage to sift me out from the emo crowd - I think that's really commendable. Thanks, bro, for equating me to passion. I honestly thought that's what really made me to be myself today. Passion is different from being emo, for those who have yet to really comprehend the essence of leadership.

All those pragmatic moments surrounding me have made me widen the gap of a certain dilemma like it is between ends of a continuum. As one continues to be proactive, the same being continues to constantly seek for passiveness. It's like the body just wanting to seek a half-here half-there stand at the end of the day. It's a constant struggle for a healthy balance that the mind wouldn't. Ironically, that struggle in myself has worn me out.

I need a few breathing moments. 

Moments when i'm free to roam mentally and spiritually, out of the conscious constraints within.


Posted by Atlantic Amethyst at 10:41 PM